This is my ten cents

Something rather wonderful happened just a minute ago...I opened my Bible and read a verse that just popped up...Ecclesiastes 7:13 - "Accept the way God does things, for who an straighten what he has made crooked" - now this stands out to me for a few reasons....
1) It's strange to think God makes things crooked. In my mind it should say "..who can make crooked what God has made straight"...perhaps I'm just insane. (And Amy too)
2) It is bolded in my bible...kind of like God wanted to me to see this. *awkward*

When I first looked at it, I was like "There is no way that is from God, it has no relevance to me"...and I walked away. When I came back to my seat, I looked at the floor and there was a dime...and God said to me "This is my ten cents"...I was so confused...and then He showed me the verse again.

I'm just wondering what it is that God has made crooked in my life that I am trying so desperately to make straight again...what could it be?
I discussed this phenomenon with Shane, Erin and Nathan tonight, and they believe it was just another gentle reminder of God's amazingness.

Anyhow...so I'm working on getting my wireless up, but wouldn't you know there is a problem. My computer HATES I mean VIVIDLY despises new programs! It is beginning to kill me. If I download or install something it takes anywhere from 34-89 tries before it will work. So...like I said...I'm having issues. The CD won't play. It keeps sending me an error report :( ALL I WANT TO DO IS GET ONTO MY WIRELESS!!!!

Oi vey. "Surely! Goodness and Mercy shall follow me, all of the days of my life...and I will dwell in the house of the forever..surely!"

Good Morning Sunshine!

Good Morning!
Last night was daylight savings and ohhhh boy did I need that extra hour! Especially since Shannon and I stayed up talkin til 3 AM!
Today, is going to be a good day. Despite the paper I have to write, oh and the sermon I have to start. God will provide me with all of my needs and nothing will fall short of the glory of God.

There is a battle on the front right now. This morning I am singing and when we practiced on Thursday, we were doing a serious amount of spiritual warfare...good? errr.....I'm learning to never second guess why things happen at certain times. The Lord's plan is better than my own anyhow.

Oh, hey, today is Nathan's 20th birthday! Oh my! Now I sound young. lol...so, yeah Nathan if you read this...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! May God continue to bless you and grow with you this year :)

One last thing...keep it real guys...remember that there is nothing you can do on your own strength and your plan is doubtfully better than our Creator's. haha... God bless ya'll.

Undivided Focus

I have absolutely no idea what to do.
I feel so lost.
Have I ruined her? Has my attempt at helping her turned into trying to fix her? I know I can't fix her. God, what can I do?! Do I let her go? I know what she does is not my responsibility..but I feel so empty...like I've failed her...*cries*

I'm so confused. Dear me....someone help.

Holy Spirit, please lead me. Father forgive me for making this my own fight. Father, forgive me for not letting you take the lead. I need you to fill me. To fill her. Father. Please, help me.

What to say, Lord?

So, I'm sitting here in class...as usual.
We are just talking about movies and what is appropriate in movies and music, what is ethical and what isn't. And of course when people talk about things that are and are not "ethical", certain subjects decide to arise and I start to close into my mind.
It's amazing to me just how sensitive I am to even words. It is making me wonder how much I have healed from these wounds. Are they still fresh wounds? I know they are not open, but have they actually healed.
I think in some situations this is the case, in other's they are brand new, and other's they are completely healed.
How do I go about this healing? How can I not wince at mere words? This is something I have been contemplating...

On another note, last night, worship practice was amazing! I was seriously impressed with God's glory! I was just praying and singing for God's glory to come down and I was longing for so much more of Him. I looked around for a min and Nathan invited Jesus to come and walk with us, and the second he started speaking that, I saw Jesus walking to each person who was asking for more of Him, and He was tightening and straightening their armor up. I didn't think it was Him...but at the end of our singing time, Angela mentioned the armor of God...and I was completely repentant. Oi...I need to start listening not just hearing God.

MMHMM So, that's my life today :)

Centric Thinkers...

Some days I laugh at the era we are trapped in.
It makes me think of what is next and feel sorry for those who will encounter history when it repeats itself.
The youth of today are being taught that they must be self-focussed and this leads to a never ending frustration and love from the leaders in the church.
One thing I have been contemplating is how does one have grace for the youth of this generation? I grew up with the same ideals, and thus, I should know how to suck them out of it and into the real world...
Unfortunately...that is not possible. My level of grace for these selfish youth has diminished. My level of love for them has as well...which is definetly not what God has called in my life.
I need some more grace...I need some more love, and I was told the other day that I am an "unending fountain of encouragement" - I am just trying to practice a new way of reaching out..but is it enough?
I want God to stretch me..c'mon God...I'm ready and willing..more than willing. I just want to help these kids see there is more to life than them...
Speaking of which...a funny revelation I had once:
Okay I've had a history of suicide attempts and most of the time I honestly believe the world won't be able to make it without me. And someone said these simple words....which I will end on...
"The world does not revolve around you"

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