Comfortably Numb.

Who am I to try and justify myself to the Lord? He is the Almighty justifier. He is the unifier...He is the Almighty.

Today has been a struggle...one min I'm wondering why I haven't gotten a text from him, and the second after I think that I remember...and I remain numb.

I can feel myself putting up walls between myself and my friends. I am comfortably numb. I am okay with this. But there is those little whispering voices...one says "Don't talk to anyone, spend time with God instead" and the other says "Don't isolate yourself, that's not of God." Which one should I listen to?
I think I complain too much anyhow...life isn't that bad when I'm alone...I don't have anyone to tell me what to do or how to act, they don't judge me or tell me things I don't want to hear (true or not)...I just don't know...